... in 2 days ...

shoot, goodbye, 23, and thanks too. andaming nangyari sa buhay ko. whatever happened to me just made me mature about how to deal with everything. grabe. just thankful na buhay pa rin ako at malakas. holding on sa lahat ng mga nagmamahal sa akin for strength. maraming salamat sa lahat, and i won't let you guys down.

nabigyan man ako ng additional calling, i won't call it a baggage or a responsibility, super hirap pala kasi super busy na. kulang na lang yata, hindi na ako matulog. hindi ko alam kung paano pagkakasyahin ang 24 hours sa isang araw. fortunately, day by day, i manage to still sleep sound at night, but with all the pimples and eyebags. � haha iyon yata ang sole problema ko sa buhay - ang pimples. very vain ba? mababaw din ba? �

cheers to another year full of blessings ahead.

freeing up excess baggage

may mga times na kailangan nating magpapakatotoo sa mga sarili natin. di ko alam, pero i've learned to say what i want to say, not to hurt other people, but for the sole reason of freeing up iyong bigat sa loob ng emotions na nararamdaman. to hell with the consequences. ang alam ko, naging totoo ako sa sarili ko.

sa pinagsabihan ko, in what ever way you would take everything i said, i'm just after the letting go of the baggage to be able to move forward. kung mag-iba man ang tingin mo sa akin, it wouldn't really matter to me.

masaya ako ang i think i did the right thing.

*sigh*

... may mga taong di maaaring mahalin, kahit alam mo sa sarili mo na you feel something special for that certain person ...

saklap ng buhay pag-ibig talaga. ever.

"... i'm not the one (he) needed, i'll (bid him) goodbye ..."

- senti mode -

i'll soon be over this. have to.

random thoughts

yum yum ang chicken curry for lunch kanina. :) sauce pa lang, ulam na. :)

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had the get together with some of my high school classmates. super, a lot has changed, nung high school, seize the day lang, still not knowing where to go. pero ngayon, may directions ang mga buhay namin. i'm proud of you, guys. i love and miss you a lot! :)

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pasukan na ulit next month. hopefully, saturdays lang ang schedule ko for this sem. :)

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post sa facebook account ko a while ago : may mga bagay na sadyang not meant to happen. nevertheless, have faith.

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pasado iyong kanta namin kanina. :) thanks guys, umabot ng more than 10 members ang nag-attend kanina. :)

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status message sa y!m as of now : you are but a little piece of me. you leave, and my world wouldn't collapse. so if i were you, just leave. (or kung balak mong magparamdam, magparamdam ka na, i'm given until *toot*. syempre, hindi ko sabihin, baka mapressure ka.)

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kilig pa rin ang mga scenes sa ryan - judy ann wedding special.

re: new site

guys, my blog here is still active aside from this, but i'll be using my multiply account more frequently:
carmzlovespurple.multiply.com
hope you check it out, add niyo na rin ako as contact. Ü
thanks. Ü

that's a lot of luggage indeed

nagweigh ako kanina sa scale. wala lang, naisip ko lang. the last time i weighed myself was about a month ago, amidst stress brought about by taking the final leg of exams for the very last time, finishing the thesis paper, at least, to earn a college degree, not to mention having pre-graduation jitters.

ngayon, hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ako. for the past month, wala akong ginawa sa bahay kundi kain tulog, siyempre, mayroon ding mga house chores pero they wouldn't take too much time from me. Ü hear me: I LOST 6 POUNDS. dapat nga tumaba pa ako kasi wala akong masyadong effort at mag-exercise man lang. d

some thoughts

when you love, never make yourself an option for someone. ang hirap pala nun. Ü the tendency for someone who becomes an option is that mas malaki ang chances na bitawan ka. Ü

ay naku, ewan ko kung saan ko napulot iyan. nag-sesenti na naman ako. iyan ang gawa ng mga movie marathons sa bahay buong maghapon. pero sometimes, naisip ko din iyon. one shouldn't let him/her self be the last resort. in turn, everybody should be able to risk for things that they truly care for (from "eight below"), hindi lang dahil may babagsakan sila na ibang tao. Ü

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